When I first began my blog it was because my friend Andrew suggested I start one. I thought that I might write a little something every once in a while, maybe link to something I thought was interesting… I had no idea it would become this. I am still not quite sure what this is. Two hundred blogs later, I am still doing whatever it is.
I had hoped to possibly write something meaningful for my 200th blog. Perhaps even Profound. Impacting. Long-lasting. However, I don’t think I can put that much pressure on this little blog of mine. I do want to say this:
People who are closest to me know I have undergone a great deal of upheaval in my life within the last year of my life. I’ve been working on forgiveness. Forgiving others. I am truly beginning to learn the phrase “It’s a daily process” and applying that to my life on a regular basis. I am not really the same person that I was when I began this blog 199 blog posts ago. I’ve changed. And there are many days I resent the people who have forced that change upon me. But I’ve also learned within these 199 blog posts that I can choose the outcomes of the changes that I experience. All I can do is get right back up again and move on.
My shadow will just keep on following me, that shadow of who I was, and just like in the daytime, there are moments when my shadow catches up with me and she and I become one again.
I hold on to certainties because, if I begin to doubt, I’ll be unraveling threads. And like all threads that unravel I would be left with nothing. Then where would I be?