Lesson learned. What was the best thing you learned about yourself this past year?
And how will you apply that lesson going forward?
For much of the early part of 2010 my life was in a daily routine of survival. It was, simply put, a daily experience of dominoes falling in a new pattern. Finally, I realized that I couldn’t go on in such a reactive state. It was exhausting. I was being ruled by my anxiety disorder and my circumstances.
Finally one day in the shower (where all my best thinking is done) in between the shampoo and the conditioner, I had what only could be called a life-changing moment. And I hadn’t even gotten to the hot oil treatment. It was this:
I can’t control people’s actions;
I can only control my reactions.
I stood there, shampoo running down my face and hands frozen in place, and started to cry. Needless to say, I was in no position to shave my legs.
I had been working so hard to control all the other things that was going on in my life I never even tried to control the one thing I had actual accountability over: myself. All of a sudden I felt like the year was going to be so much more livable.
Even if I did use up all the hot water.
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2 thoughts on “shower thinking”
I *love* using up all the hot water in the shower being lost in thought… so long as I get out before it gets too cold. 😉
What a huge shift to make. The gifts of the shower. 🙂
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