I know that what will challenge me, and heal me, in 2011 will be forgiveness. This will be the refiner’s fire. It may very well bring me more tears than the wrongs that have been brought against me. Yet I know that for my own heart I must do it because of all my fears, I fear most of all becoming that woman. You know, that woman who becomes bitter and whose eyes narrows when she sees happiness in others. Who refuses to feel and experience joy. It terrifies me.
I recognize it might take me more than a year. And I recognize that I don’t want to forgive people who have so spitefully hurt my family. But like the ocean’s relentless energy, I know that whether I want life to continue or not, negative energy only affects me and not the people who have hurt us. It is time to send it all into the deep blue and feel the water’s pulse soothe me.
It will only be through forgiveness, I know, that my family and I will be able to put 2010 to rest.